Madmoiselle

bye2 where-nobody-knows

2009-08-07T23:13:00.000-07:00

MOVE TO http://giraffescribbleshere.wordpress.com/

SEEYA THERE!
BLOGGER SUCKS.

sour

2009-07-29T12:15:00.000-07:00

Should be sick soon.

I was all moody for -again-, no reason.
The truth was that i couldnt sleep after i got home.
Though my eyes were shut,i still couldnt sleep.
Its 3.19am now,
and i feel like none of these should've happened.

and u know how much i miss you.
pffffffffffffffffftttt.
Guess,we wouldnt see each other again this weekend.
But its okay,...
i guess.

"awak....kita da penat tau."
i guess i kept that for too long.
afterall what should i say?

im hungry.,
really hungry.

:'(
im trying to be a better girlfriend.

Simple as it seems

2009-07-28T19:46:00.000-07:00

"It could, it could be that simple
(you were thinking)
Life should be that simple
(Who would have thought it)
I wish it were just so simple
(don't know what you were thinking)
You're in a haze
It's just a phase
You know this maze
Is as simple as it seems

We could talk all day
About your eccentricities
What I mean to say
Oh, is that I need you listen please
And focus on life's simplicities
So don't be afraid to strip it away
Cause at the end of the day
It's still as simple as it seems"

Simple-Katy Perry

Bye-bye Friday. Hello Saturday

2009-07-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

"It's hard to remember how it felt before

Now I found the love of my life...

Passes things get more comfortable

Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles

It's good to see you now with someone else

And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends

After all that we've been through

I know we're cool"

Dear Friday,
why are u giving me the cold shoulders again??

pfffffffftttttttttttttt.

anywayssssss,

at the end of the day,

i realise that none of all that is important,

Coz all those people are VAMPIRES!

So what if ure trying to make me feel pissed and i dont feel a thing coz i dont think that any of this is really important coz u know and i know and everybody knows that ure pretty or whatsoever.

heh?.

Was bored, so i browsed thru YouTube.

I found some old vids siaaaaa.

Then i start to wonder....

Wouldn't it be great if all those vidss are gonna be on YouTube forever,

just so that i could show them to my kids or whoever when i grow older?

hmmmmmmmm

oklaaa Fadz online ardly.

ciaoo ~

whenyousaylovemakestheworldgoround

2009-07-22T01:02:00.001-07:00

"Here...here I am again

And I'm starin at these same four walls

Alone again

And now all the colors blend

And I'm growing up and i've become this empty page

Hold on it's tragic stumblin through all this static

I just wanna talk to you my broken heart just has no use

I, I guess promises are better left unsaid...yeah

Everytime you try to tell me You say the words that i'm the only

But i'm the one whose crawlin on the ground

When you say love makes the world go round"

imtiredla.really.

we're fine,doing just fine.

iswearthatthiswillonlymakeusstronger.

imissyou.

thnyu

2009-07-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

Thank you FADZLIN

Maybe too tired.

2009-06-30T04:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so shagged.

Just got home from jogging.

Jogging during the sundown time makes me realise that I've not been spending much time with my family.

I miss DAD.

And i miss those FRIDAY outings,

SATURDAY's gathering at Grandma's house,

and on Sunday we will have ALOT to eat for breakfast.

I really miss all that:'(

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTT~

Have not been doing anything much lately.

I spend most on my term break working.

and somehow i hate to go online.

I don't feel like expressing everything here.

Not now.

Not tomorrow.

Not forever.

I'm so immature,

i think?.

P/S:lets lock ourselves in our own little world.,shall we?

A little time for love.

2009-06-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

Best friends,

Work buds,

Laughing Partner,

Stargazing Partner,

Cam Whore buds,

My Radio

and most importantly

My one true love.

...

2009-06-14T20:51:00.000-07:00

"No true love can live without its dread penalty---Jealousy."

MUSIC IS WHAT I NEED.

Term Break

2009-06-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to blog about.

For all i know during term break,
Im gonna finish up my FTT
and work work work work
and most importantly go out and have fun.

I wish that we could stay this way forever.

enjoing the rainy saturday morning~
I love you Fadzlin:)

.....

2009-05-31T16:58:00.000-07:00

Wake me up when september ends.can?

2009-05-30T11:50:00.000-07:00

A weekend that i wont forget.

I had fun going out "dating" with Fadz.

Sushi,sushi and moorrreeee sushi's.

"eyyyyyyy.nakal eh."

hahahahahaha.

Then off to Central to mandi-kan Khus.

ouhhhh the ingredients were 3 buckets of ice,Water,Chai syrup,raspberry syrup,Classic syrup,Mocha syrup,Caramel sauce,Coffee and Cream frapp Base,Green tea powder,Whip cream and white chocolate syrup,well stirred and topped with Coffee Grinds!

Fuhhhhhhhh!

It smells niceeee~ *puke*.

It was fun,till before we left.

It was a sad goodbye.

I know...like we can still visit him and stuff.

But without T.I/Khus,CE's closing shifts wont be as fun as it was before:(

So long Kussy-Wussy~

:(:(:(

pics cumming up soon i hope.

Ciao~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAISAL!

"i looooooooooove mat-rwempettt~"

Enjoying the moments.

2009-05-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

Pelajar-pelajar tercontoh.

"Duhai Padiii antara bangsaaaaa......"

Syed's Fav song.-_______________-

We kids love CAM WHORING!

What's not to like when you get to try using a Mac PC.

Start tearing up when reading back all those messages.

I miss you.

akustatik

2009-05-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

Here's some pictures i took over the weekends,

pictures after work.

Pictures of Adrian getting crazier day by day.

And picture of Fadz being so hypeerrrrrrr,kindda wierd....

btw,Fadz=Richard Simmons dance.

Miss you Wafflecrisp!

"berlari-lari ku mencari mu...."

hahahah

Dear Era

2009-05-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Era,

Your boyfriend and i started off with nothing and look at us now.

Im starting to fall for him even more as i get to know him better.

Im starting to miss that warm tight hug,

the web cam's days,

our jogging weekends,

and the most fun part was just sitting down and talk about nothing or maybe,something.

A man needs he's own space too,

so when your boyfriend and i go out during he's free days to chill and talk about anything,

everything feels so right.

I hope he feels the same way too.

Well,i guess only you know how he feels and stuff.

So please.,do take good care of my/your boyfriend.

And tell him that i really really enjoy having him around me most of the time.

P/S:psssst eraaaaa,tell me everything hoor~ ^.^

Love You Fadzlin

Fadz..u there?

2009-05-14T05:47:00.000-07:00

SO bored at home,and i refuse to complete assignment.
plus,I MISS AHMAD FADZLIN SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW leeeeeh?

"HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!*roarrrr!!*"

hahahaaa.

going crazy soon.

Dear John,What if.....?

2009-05-13T09:56:00.000-07:00

"Dear John Tyree,

What if there was no lie?

Nothing wrong,

nothing right?

What if there was no time?

and no reason,

or rhyme?.

What if you should decide,

that you don't want me there by your side?,

that you don't want me there in your life?."

P/s:I'm soft and im sorry:[

gonna miss dad again:[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[

010509

2009-05-04T03:45:00.000-07:00

"Nobody is perfect.Not me.Not you.

Everyone has their own imperfections.

But the most important thing is for a person to strive

and try to be a better person.

Sometimes we need a reason for us to do that.

And my reason is you.

You make me want to be a better person.

........................."

01.05.09

2009-04-30T18:46:00.000-07:00

Been awhile since i write something here.

Everyday have been the same ever since i start school.
It feels like dejavu every time when i board the bus.
And every dream that i had while i slept in the bus seemed the same too.
The everyday people that i meet,the everyday bus driver that i greet.
WAHLAINEH
My life is pretty much boring.
blurgggggh.whatever.

They say that cigarettes brings people together.
and yes i agree.
It was all because of cigarettes that most of us became friends.
:]]
"eh tu aper uh????" Qaiyum asking me and sai-pull while queing to buy food.
"tuu kupang la"sai-pull replied.
"eh!!!!!!!!!!tu kan LALA."dengan confident-nyer aku jawab.
*sai-pull and aiyum face blur like sotong*
"LALA ape sak? *muka onekind*" qaiyum ask
"LALA tuu mcm seafood uh-CONFIDENT buger-"
Check2 makcik dah ketawe2 kat belakang.
"nak ni bukan lala.ni kupang.*muka tgh tahan ketawa*"
"UH KANNNNNNN.!" saipull ans qaiyum dan ketawe2.
hahahahahahahaha
tuula confident lagi kannnnn.HAHA
tapi kan,ive heard of a seafood thing called LALA okayyyyy.wth!!

Hmmmmm...Somehow i miss my secondary school life.
The Nagy teachers.
The super long hour assembly which was on every Wednesdays for the upper sec's.
The so noisy canteen.
The fun PE lessons were we did nothing but play games.
The funny-funny people that we meet at every staircase.
pfffffft.too many memories.
But it was fun liao.
:]]

"Running..Running......as fast as you can......."
So.....i think i wanna go for a jog later.
Miss jogging so much.
Okay...i think i wanna do something with my room.
sick of it already.

ciao*BIG FAKE SMILE*

p/s:Paolo Nutini's new album is out soon!!!!!
Cant wait to grab it:]
Pffftttt.so sian

These Streets

2009-04-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

Guess what they say is true.

You dont have to be in a relationship to be in love........

I hope u know that im always there whenever you need a helping hand or a listening ear.

Yet another song that i like and can never get sick of listening to it after soooo long.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ohEkwknA-ss&feature=related

I LOVE PAOLO

nothing much to update.

soo....

ciao~

Harol And Kumar

2009-04-08T04:04:00.000-07:00

"Im fear that i will always be

A lonely number like the root three

The three is all that's good and right,

why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,

i wish instead i were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,

with just some quick arithmetic

I know i'll never see the sun, as 1.7321

such in my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! what is this i see,

Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,

Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds

with the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued

Your love for me has been renewed"

-Harol and Kumar,Escape from Guantanamo Bay.

P/S: Hope u enjoyed yesterday Piannnnn~

*surprise,surprise*

Happy sia!~

2009-04-06T07:04:00.000-07:00

heh,

Meet my new friend,

he's name is Partrick Star!!!!!!!

and he lovessss Waffle Crisp!.

Just got back for jogging,

been smiling since just now.

Coz Dad is back HOME!

and i now have a frend to share all my thoughts with.

:):):):):):):):):):):):)

Running...

P/S:Thank-You Fadz.Dont worry,i will feed him every single day horrrr!

lets go with the flow~

you know what i mean ;)

2 in 1

2009-04-06T00:12:00.000-07:00

"If I'm to fall

would you be there to applaud?

or would you hide behind them all?

cause if i have to go,

in my heart you'll grow

and thats where you belong...

Guess I'm outta time...

I'm outta time...

I'm outta time

I'm outta time"

I'm Outta Time-Oasis

Busy

2009-03-28T20:13:00.000-07:00

Take the time to make some sense

Of what you want to say

And cast your words away upon the waves

Bring them back with acquiesce

On a ship of hope today

And as they land upon the shore

Tell them not to fear no more

Say it loud and sing it proud

And they...

-The Masterplan.

Currently having the Oasis Fever.

:):):):):):):):):):):)

"ARRRRRRRR!!!!!LIAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!"

"WOOOOO!!!!!!!!!NOOOOEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!"

"stop-it sia Fildzah!!"

so everyone knows that i cant wait for next SUNDAY!

So this week was so far okayy.

I was scheduled to work for spring camp for 3 days,

that means 3 days of food paradise for both breakfast and lunch.

3 days of finding ways to escape for Natalie,the so fragile one.

3 days of always kena bully with Micheal.kanasai sia u.

Then 3 days of fun and excitement,

well almost.

and last but but not least,

3 days of being a paedophile....,

OUH SHUT UP!

"psssttt. John looks like Alex Wolff/The naked brothers band lead singer"

go to hell sia

Its like De Ja Vu.

Things are all hard to explain again.

I always find myself feeling all this unwanted feelings.

"why?",

i ask myself again and again but i dont have any answers to my own stupid questions.

I dont think u would wanna know how it felt like being me,

coz i know that i could avoid all this small stupid feelings,

but i just cant.

Im weak,Im too weak la.

pffft.

yes Mister Julian Casablancas,

The end has no end.

ouhkaylaaaaa.

eyes are itching.

I hate ____.

I miss ___ and ______ _______.

i love ______ _______ so much!

sorry

2009-03-22T11:50:00.000-07:00

cant sleep.

cant sleep well.

since yesterday.

im sorry.

i knw ive disappoint u.

im just sorry.

i just didnt want anything to change between us.

i dont wanna be alone.

i was actually waiting for u.

but this is what you get for lying.

i know.

i deserve it.

p/s:im sorry,miss you

Rollercoaster?

2009-03-22T00:18:00.000-07:00

Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES, i have to admit that Waffle Crisp is way nicer then Honeystar.

but anyway,thanks fadz for the waffle crisp:)

Yesterday's pit was exactly how i imagined it would be.

Firstly,most of them were late,then i was raining summore.

The most fun part was only when we walked our way out from the pit.

That was when i knew that i had butterflies in my stomach.

Then the butterflies turned to a whole different thing when we reached the parking lot.

Are you for real?

Uh but Friday wasn't that bad.

I mean besides i lost my nets and i missed my last bus and the last train to central,

I wasn't that bad at all!

Friday was like a roller coaster ride,

at one time i feel like i was having the time of my life

till i realised that my life was crashing down on me so fast that i couldn't do anything to stop it.

But whatever it is,Friday was still better then Saturday.

Life is full of decisions.

Even when u feel like u don't have to make a decision,it is still considered a decision.

So now,ive decided to make it all up to you.

Jealousy is something what many people feel.

But that feeling will fade off when u get tired of it.

so let this jealousy wear me off.

Friday the 13th pictures are up!

but only the selected once..

ciao~

Thoughts

2009-03-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

Dad is packing up his stuff to fly back to Indonesia later.

Its 3.33pm and i haven't had my nicotine yet-but I'm still not complaining-

Yesterday Fadz asked me something that made me smile up till now.

Both my brothers are having the time of their life playing PS3 since yesterday night.

Im so jealous that none of my brothers is playing games with me.

I downgraded my phone.

I broke my own promise again~.

Im currently eating my Honey Star cereal while blogging.

Bab told me that ive been spending too much time with "HIM" instead of "US".

Im meeting up with Bab and Yan later.

Im still wondering why is the sky blue?

Im still glad that nothing serious happened to Pid.

Im still in bed with my blanket covering me.

My home phone is ringing and no one bother to pick up.

I haven't sleep with Teddie and Fluffy since for god knows when.

Dad's sick.

Mum is SICKENING.

I don't feel like today is Tuesday.

I can still wait for Saturday

But i cant wait for Friday.

"Saturdayyyyyy,wait.

Sunday always come too late.

Friday never hesitate!"

Final theory is so so so so so so so so so so so so HARD

"Girl uh,?do u think u can pass ure Evaluation test before next Monday?"asked the BBDC Operator(-.-)HOW I KNOW SIA!!!!

Waiting for Bab's call....

waiting.......

waiting.................

still waiting.............................

p/s: Friday the 13th pictures not up yet liao.sorry

Box Car Racer

2009-03-16T23:51:00.000-07:00

So People.The moral of the story is "if ure not a racer dont even try to be one".
Thank God ure okay:)

Hard to explain

2009-03-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

"I say the right things but act the wrong way

I like it right here but I cannot stay

I watch the TV forget what I'm told

Well, I am too young, and they are too old

Oh, man, can't you see I'm nervous, so please

Pretend to be nice, so I can be mean

I miss the last bus, we take the next train

I try but you see, it's hard to explain"

Hard to Explain-The Strokes

It is confusing isn't it.

I thought i knew what i wanted,but i kept changing my mind.

Ouh well,we have the time of our life to get to know each other even more better.

So its like 12.21am and im thinking of ways to get richer.

I spend a whole day with no faggots,

and im not even complaining.

I kept smelling ure perfume wherever i go,

I kept dreaming of u every single time i fell asleep.

Am i even close to normal?

.........

Yesterday was a big boom day sia.

My plan was to sleep my whole afternoon and spent my nights with era's bf.

But i end up going to PIE to see if Pidalos is okay and stuff.

After that went to watch Dragonball with Apek-since he want to watch it so so badly-

"AH-MEH,AHHHHH-MEEEHHHHHHH,HUKKKK!"

I wasn't even excited to watch that movie liao,

But i have to say,it wasnt that bad.

After that we had Doughnuts for our mini-dinner.

Imagine uh,

the 2 of us sharing 12pc of doughuts!!!

TOO MUCH SIA-.-

okay,okay.

After all that madness with him,i went to met era's bf.

Smile-smile,talk-talk-talk,the off to Geylang for dinner.

And yes,i was singing and rapping like nobody's business at the expressway.

The only explanation was

I HAD TOO MUCH SUGAR.

"sorry la if i talk non-stop"

After that pit-stop to Keppel Bay,and off to home.

by then my dad already got home!

YESSS.,i miss him so badly.

after which chat with era's bf again.and sleep.

ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz.

You my friend, are sweeter then a sweet.

I'll update the next post about my friday,13th okay.

Waffel Crisp<3

is this a mistake?

2009-03-10T01:54:00.000-07:00

There's nothing more important then to thank Era's boyfriend first!

Thank u for the food u send me-i feel so guilty,it was raining sia..-.

Thank u for helping me do closing-next time i help u,please dont say im irritating uh-.

Thank u for sending me home after that-padahal i can take transport sey-.

Thank you for everything la!!!!!!!!!!

I just cant stop saying thank you.

but once again,THANK YOUUUUU:)

Sorry Era.I may sound like a b****,but i dunno why i think ure boyfriend is sweet.
You are one lucky ______ to get a boyfriend like him.

I dont mean to hurt ure feelings Era,seriously.

But......

only god knows

So Much stories but yet i find myself getting more closer to you.

Trust is gaining but yet fading both at the same time.

Feelings cant be described.

Weak,Weakened,Weaker as everyday that pass me by.

Im unsure about my feelings,sometimes.

But im so sure that im happy to be around u,ure laughter and smile.

less then 3.

Im so carried away by Era's boyfriend that i have nothing much to say about my life.

So to Era im sorry.

And to Era's boyfriend......less then 3???lets not rush:)

p/s:i will still keep the waffle crisp u send me,

"awwwwwwwwwwww.THANK YOUUUUUUU"

Fake plastic love

2009-03-03T20:38:00.000-08:00

Haunted by the pass?

wth are u trying to say.

That I'm like a nightmare in your dreams?

I have seriously gotten over you.

Its because i have to.

Never jealous or anything,

was just shocked when u got over us after a day we broke off.

For all this while it has never been about me/us.

It was always about You,you,and you.

You play around with my feelings too much.

You even had feelings for another girl.

How was i suppose to feel?

A time off was all i need.

You were the very reason why i lost trust in most guys.

You were the reason why i puff too much.

You said love need scarification-if there were such a word-.

F*** that,Open your freaking eyes and see.

Have i never sacrificed?

I know i did do some other stuff to make you feel angry or sad.

but what you did was unforgivable.

I wish i wud never have to see you face again.

sorry,

Fake plastic love.

That was just a random thing,if it doesn't make any sense to you don't bother reading it again.

I need a change so badly.

I wanna be a better person to both mum and dad.

I wanna be a good servant to God.

Can i ever be changeable??

P/S: mr.chipmuck=HAPPY :P

come home soon

2009-03-01T04:59:00.000-08:00

Im such an asshole,

Because u are treating me like one.

Im doing everything because of dad not u.

Knock as hard as u want,

my music is louder then anything else.

I wish u were the one who had to go away.

Im sorry.

P/S:Dad come home soon:'(

A song for the lovers<3

2009-02-28T02:39:00.000-08:00

So yesterday i was bored while waiting for a friend before i start work,so i decided to take pics with my Starbucks friends.

meet my manager,T.I/Don Khusko/Khussy Wussy/Pencinta Wanita-wtf-/Khus.and she's the reason why my ass are getting bigger.MAMA SUJJ/Suja. And they are the reason why i like working at Tanglin! Josh&Roy/Ayer Gayer:)

So now im so super bored.My mum say that dad's gonna be home today and will be flying off by tomorrow.Pfftttt,whats the use of cumming home anyway.God!!!this is soo irritating.Well whatever.

Currently listening to Richard Ascroft-A song for the lovers.I think he's a good song writer.Despite he's looks i shud say he have a great voice.Just like my Boyfriend,Paolo Nutini:p.hahaha Nobody can beat Paolo's voice!

It's raining Cats and Dogs outside.And im loving it!Rainy days just makes me happy:)

And now my eyes are staring to itch.I think i wanna have a nap now.

bye~

AVATAR!

2009-02-26T22:38:00.000-08:00

AVATAR IS THE SHIT!

hahahahahhahahahahah

call me childish or whatever you guys want to,

But i would still date Zuko if were to ever get the chance!

watch this and you'll understand what i mean.

just so you guy know Zuko is the cute one with the scar on his face.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvYwESRMIyA

So now im waiting for Taufiq to burn for me the whole series of Avatar.

Ouh yea!,i cant wait to spend my whole day watching that.

"APPA...! YIP-YIP!"

I chat with Taufiq the other day and we were like talking about this Avatar thinggy

then he said something like

"fiza.lets get married!"

"so that when we have children we could educate our children by watching Avatar every morning and feed them with Coldplay songs before they go to sleep!!!"

"so when they grow up they will be like the coolest kid!"

hahahah.

asalkan die takde lobang teliga mcm kau dah kire cukop sihat lah.

Alrightees

step back to reality.

Im working at 8.30pm later.

and i'll be working for only 5 hour sia.

WTH

5 hr=$25!!!!!!!!!!!!

well forget it.

Ouh btw pay day is NEXT WEEK!

I cant wait!!!!!!

After getting pay im gonnna buy my Fred Perry shoe and my BAG!

woooooooo~

Then go for late night lepakssss with old frendssssss

which i miss alot!

And then can go buy Obama Book also!

with Zatie....since she was EXTRA-EXTRA nice to offered herself to accompany me.

"kau serious nak beli buku Obama fildza?"

"uh2 la.!kenape?kau fikir aku main2 eh?"

"KIMAK!*shocked faced with her jaws open*KAU OBAMA GIRL SIAK!"

hahaha.i dont know what so shocking about that.

Ouh well,I think i need a nap now.

Just so IF i go makan with Fadz later i wont fall asleep.

see ya later young folks~

To:you know who you are

2009-02-24T01:12:00.000-08:00

"life isnt complicated
people make it complicated
when things like these bother you..you just have to step back and look at the whole picture and tell yourself life is far more important than all these small insignificant things. why let it bother you. you're only 19. there are so many other things to worry about. cheer up aitez"

Im reaching out to you,and no one else.

You knew how i felt about this,-me and you-.

and i meant everysingle word i say.

I just need time to know you better

coz i just cant help listening to all the stories that people tell me.

Im very sorry that if i bothered you every single day.

Hope u get well soon.

:'(

Sorry mr snaily!!!!

2009-02-22T06:48:00.000-08:00

Sunday was BORING!~,i spend more then 7hours sleeping,but yet im still sleepy.
Just got home from lepaking with my happy pill frend,Zattie!
Went to my favorite place in BUKIT PANJANG-Senja Grand-to talk and Fagg and talk summore.And for the second time,i accidentally stepped and crushed on a snail's shell!
I really felt sad about what happened,SORRY SNAIL:'(.The snail was small and tiny any fragile sia.Zattie kept saying "fizahhhhhh,dont cry.Its not ure fault,the snail was just too slow!" hahaha
But anyway,it wasn't as bad as the first one.so yeah,SORRY MR. SNAIL-Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm,my throat is getting from BAD to WORST!
I tried lots of stuff to get rid of my sore throat,from green tea to Strepsils to fisherman's friend and even plain water!,and yet nothing works.Pfftttttt!

Saturday was okay.
I have to work when my throat is really killing me!,then the bus was later then usual and it was extremely full for the next couple of bus thennnnnn summore i need to extend my hours,and it was really tiring and that's not it!,Andy was as cranky as usual then the worst part was when we-Andy,me and Khus- talked about what happened on Friday.Pfftttt

Ived come to realise that most guys are all the same.
They go around asking girls for numbers and get drunk together,then get laid for free-sometimes- then move on.
Why so desperate?????
Its just hard to trust and hard to be fallen in love again.
Aiyah.....

Now im starting to miss my guy friends.
I'ts been awhile since i go out with most of them.
Especially SUBA!
wahhhh!,miss laughing to all he's stupid jokes!
"POWER GRIPS"
hahahaha.We should go out again....soon?maybe?

Alrightees.gotta go now.update someothertime no mood la~

:(

2009-02-18T04:27:00.000-08:00

I AM SO SUPER FREAKING BORED!

P/S:hey MR"see-you-on-the-road"please come online if you happen to wake up or something...

?YASIDLUOHSTAHW

2009-02-17T09:08:00.000-08:00

so....so..

Currently im resting after a whole week of working MADNESS!

Ouh yea.so,some ask how did my Valentines day this year goes.

Hmm,actually i dont really celebrate,coz i just dont seem to care about it,

yet it was an unexpected celebration but

its was bitter-sweet one i shall say.

The bitter part was that i have to do closing at PARAGON,

yeah...yeah"only loosers work on valentines day"blurghhh,whatever.

But yet the sweet thing was that i got a flower from someone

whom i'd really never expected :)

"eh,i have something to give u uh..."

"its something obvious sey*smile-smile*"

"Nah! happy valentines day~"

"so that you're not jealous coz everyone's getting a flower and ure not*smile-smile*"

hahaha Thank you.

".edihdnawonelohananiflesymyrubannogmi.uoyrofgnillafmi.ekamotnoissenocaevahi"

hahahahhahaha

its a code only some people know.

Honestly,i knew what you wrote.I lied when i told you that i didnt knew anything.I'm sorry i lied.There's alot of things i wish i could ask you about that msg u send me.hahahaha

Alright,that was random and awkward, so skip that for a moment.

ouh yea!guess what la!!!!!!!!!!!!

COLDPLAY IS CUMMING TO TOWN!!!!!!!!!!

and i so wanna go to their concert sia!

pffttt,who wanna go?,go with me la.

okay lah,im so supper sleepy sia!

its been awhile since I've slept early.

so,anything I'll update more stuff next time.and one thing's for sure more pictures cumming up!

P/S:Thank you for everything,from sending me home to the flower and to even listening to all my problems when i needed to.

Thank you so much MR."see-you-on-the-road~".

:)

2009-02-10T17:27:00.000-08:00

yeah,yeah,yeah.

i know,my blog like so dead siaaaa~

I just need help from someone to upgrade my blog:(

Recently my computer was down then summore

Ive been busy with school application and stuff and if not

work/attachment at all store island wide,like wtf.

But for the last five days,ive been going out with Fadz alot.

And for the first time i went Marina Barrage sia~

That place was awesome plus its super windy.

wooooooo~

next time we jog there k Fadz?.hahahah

So i have alot to say since i last blogg.

My freaking BTT is on 17 feb,and im not prepared.

School starts on April,which means i need to save more cash from now on.

I'm growing fatter by every second since i have no time for jog.

Trying to cut down on all the "BAD STUFF".

Partners from Starbucks Tanglin=MADNESS!

Fadz's PENG make me WALK-IT-OUT:)

I love my new boyfriend!!

Cant wait for girlfriends meet-up's.

I kindda miss my whole bunch of bestfriends.

Lesly Roy's new single 'Unbeautiful' reminds me of me.?

I LOVE the new BLUEBERRY MUFFIN.

Khus is becoming more like T.I?

I miss my Spenelli Friends:(

Fammy + long hair= William Beckett.

Still not happy with that tag board thing.CB sia.

Im not prepared for school.

and finally,I think my life is super boringgggggggggggggggggg~

hmmmm

that's about it.

I'm gonna miss Dad soon.

I'll update more later.

seeya

-off to work-

January 12

2009-01-14T05:05:00.000-08:00

People think they know everything,
when everything is nothing.

Its been awhile since i blog,
and from what i can i say, alot of things have changed.
A few days back Ive realized that im loosing everything in life.
It was a day that i'll never forget, Never-Ever.

January 12 2009.
The day i needed time alone.
All i could think of was how to make my life better for my Parents and Rafiq.
I know that i'm such a big disappointment,especially to my Dad.
I was in my room when Mum asked me why am i crying over spilled milk?,then
she kept on saying that i was a big disappointment to my Dad and that she regret paying all my tuition fees and stuff. I couldnt help but to cry more and talk less.
As soon as mum got out my room, Dad called, i tried my best to stop crying
but eventually it got whorst just by listen to him talk.
He was saying things like, everythings gonna be okay and that i dont need to cry coz he's not there to comfort me.Then he even told me that he will get me the lappy just like what he promised.
I mean,to come to think of it i dont deserve anything.
Then,that's when i know i needed some time alone.

On the other hand on that same particular day, i think i lost a best frend
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,Rafiq.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.

All i could think off was this;

"I am sure i need no introduction,Im always the friend
who lingers around and never ever go.Im sorry about what happened the other day.
I guess i was a little bit overreacting.This would be the last time i would write you letters
and maybe also the last time you would hear from me.
Just so you know i failed my Exam again.This time round i got 30 points and i still cant
face the fact that i failed.I dont think anyone understands how i feel,but whatever.
That's not my main point of writing this to you,the thing i wanted to say was thanks for all the things that u've done to me as a boyfriend and a friend.Having you around was awesome.
You were like the #1. Best friend that i've ever had.
You were always there to make me smile and laugh to all your funny jokes and having u means alot to me.But all good things must come to an end. So, i just wanna let you know that everything happens for a reason,and hopefully life is more appreciated when im not around.
Sorry if i sound too emo, but like i said,i may regret this one day.BUT...........
i dont know why im doing this either.May 2009 be a meaningful year to both u and your girlfriend.
p/s: You will definately be missed alot,RafiQ

love,
fildzahanis"

P/S: Im sorry.

Inspired?

2009-01-04T17:39:00.000-08:00

TIM HENDRICKS

Do it for me now

2009-01-04T17:25:00.000-08:00

It's a frightening night and the wind has a roar 
It seeps through the hall and from under the door 
Like the shit that was said -can't take it that well 
I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still 
Lost and hurt and bone dead from the love that's been starved 
I know I've got close but I'm sure it's too far 
From the point of suspense we know it should be 
The end of the part of our favorite movie 
Where the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand 
Says take me away from this torturous land 
Cause the grave is set up -The hole that I dug 
I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust 
Like the time that we kissed and you gave me a lie 
To add to the scene you pretended to cry 
But I'm here and I'm cool -the way that it is 
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive... 

And I don’t know / And I can't guess 
It’s gonna be okay but now 
My last wish is / That you do this with me 
Kiss me here / And hold my hand 
And let me feel like I’m the only one 
I know you can / Won’t you do it for me now? 

I really had it with the rain and the tears 
The predictable storm that has come every year 
And it sneaks in from shore with the bat in it's hand 
I’m tryin' I’m tryin' I’m tryin' I’m tryin' -I can't 
You’re a thief and a witch, but I love you to death 
You steal my heart and curse under your breath 
But the one thing that I can most willingly prove 
That when you are gone I’ll be fine without you 

And I don’t know / And I can't guess 
It’s gonna be okay but now 
My last wish is / That you do this with me 
Kiss me here / And hold my hand 
And let me feel like I’m the only one 
I know you can / Won’t you do it for me now? 

Now just hold on, hold on to me... 
Hold on - Hold on to me...

AVA-Do It For Me Now


p/s:YOUR FREAKING ME OUT shit~!

New Year Vs Reality

2009-01-01T07:23:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fun, if i remembered it clearly.
While watching the fireworks i'd manage to make my new year resolution.
Most of it is personal stuff but i did wish for a better year ahead.
And hey Congrats to my cuzz for her engagement on 01.01.09.
Glad that finally ure getting married to someone you truely love!!!!!

Can i just throw out all my feelings here?, now?.
You know what, to come to think of it most guys are the same.
Well not all guys,but MOST guys.
Ouh well whatever.

Just so you know I'm sorry armyboy.
I know what i did was wrong, but i thought u didn't mind me doing all that stuff
coz i believe that's what you do it too.
Plus i didn't know why these days u seemed to care too much for me.
Just like old times yeah?
errr?
I dunno, i mean, its confusing.
I'm sorry, cos all i need now is you to just be yourself.
And let things happened by itself.
friend?......

sorry.

p/s: I felt that people need to change?
or am i the one who needs a change?
eeeewwwwww~
I felt disgusted for doing nothing.

:):(:):(

2009-01-01T07:12:00.000-08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

Christmas

2008-12-25T16:11:00.000-08:00

First of all,
Thanks Zatie,Mia,Shida&Fizah for the sweater!!!!!!
I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the necklaces and shawl too!!!!!!!!!!
i thought we were there to celebrate Fizah's birthday only.
but anyway,i was surprised and shocked!
Thanks once again:)

So, working on Christmas eve was kinda tired,
the store extended till 2 in the morning.
F***-ing Tired!

I'll write more some other day.

Ciao

Mum

2008-12-24T12:30:00.000-08:00

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

Just like a star-Corinne Bailey Rae

A song,to say sorry for making you cry yesterday.
We both never click like everyone does.
It sucks.......,this sucks.
Just so you know i never really meant what i say,
But how could you say such things to me.
Its clear.......,everthing is.
You've hate me more that you can hate anyone in this world
but i think that sometimes you should cut down on ure nagging
and just be more understanding coz that's all i need,someone to understand me.
That is why i always turn to them then you.
I wish that i wasn't born too, just like what you've mention.
and Buying me stuff wont make me feel any better.
Im Sorry, Mum.

Naive

2008-12-20T10:28:00.001-08:00

I'm not saying its your fault
Although you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this been done
By such a smiling sweetheart.
Ohh I'm just a sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful.
Ohh that everytime I look inside

I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

I may say it was your fault
Because i know you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart.
Ohh I'm just a sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful.
That everytime I look inside

I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

So how could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
You're so naive yet so
You're such an ugly thing
For somone so beautiful
That everytime you're on his side

I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that im not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your pride
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your pride
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your pride
Just don't let me down

The Kooks-Naive

Miss you?

2008-12-20T01:16:00.000-08:00

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

I Miss You-Blink 182

That song reminds me of old times sia.
Those hindu timessssss,where i was a little bit taller then Alfian?,
and when every Malay guys in school started tapered-ing their school pants? ,
and our favorite hangout place after school would be at Din's house,HAHAHAH,
Where every morning Bukit Panjang LRT station would be the pick-up point for most of us,
then the last row of table and bench in the canteen would be full of the "POPULAR KIDS".

I remembered watching this "i miss you" vid at Din's house, for the first time.
And i start to like it because of some stupid reason.
When i come to think of it, it's funny how life is.
Like how people met, and everything.
And that how memories stick forever and ever.
shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit.
That's what i always think when i think of u.
sorry.

So,back to reality.
Im super sick and super broke!
What a life,so Dad please come home!
pffttttttt

ciao~

P/S:The real reason why i change was because i think i got sick of me being such a narrow minded person.And yessss,you are becomming more of a mat siaaaaa.hahaha:)
thanks alot.

my birthday present?

2008-12-17T05:05:00.000-08:00

THANKS TO IZZATIE!!

hahahahahahahahhaha

Best Birthday Ever!

2008-12-16T21:31:00.000-08:00

:):):):):)
Must be wondering why im smiling all day long?
Hahahaha,THEY should know.
Thanks Yan, Zub,Hariz,Mia,Bab and Syam.
My birthday couldn't have been better without you guys :)

p/s: SORRY for all the stupid things that happened yesterday
and thanks to all for being such and awesome Friends!!
i love you guys sooooooo much!

Thanks alot guys!

18 :)

2008-12-15T14:06:00.000-08:00

HAAYYYYY HAYYYYYY:)
Just got home.Been smiling since yesterday:):):)
First thanks to you MATssss -you guys know who you are- , yesterday was AWESOME!!!!
No one ever had a Birthday Breakfast like mine!!!!!, BIGGEST TRAY OF BROWNIE with candles and Red wine? hahahahah.It was sweet of you guys,thought the idea was kindda weird but anyway THANKS SO MUCH i enjoyed myself:)
And Thanks to the people who called in yesterday,
especially Zub,Mia,Yan,Bab and Hariz -The birthday song on the phone was sweet *cry...cry*-
and Faizul and Wan-JJ and even Shahiddin
THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS!!
hahahaha
Plus thanks Shida,Fizah,Izzatie,Hafiz and those whom i forgot to write you name here,
i wanna say thank you so much:)
blessed to have people like you guys around,thanks:)

So, tomorrow I'm finally working!!
yey!!! i cant wait!!!!:) and one more thing,

Just so you know, i hate it when u tried to be nice to me just so you could bully me by doing all your homework and stuff, I'm no longer that girl!,and its no longer High School,
but thanks anyway.

ciao~

Dad

2008-12-14T22:55:00.000-08:00

HayyyHayyyy:)
Just met up with the fun peeps -Yan,Hariz,Bab and Mia-
so now im at home waiting for all of the "MATsss" to come over and chiao.
"I CANT WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! can hurry up or-not uh!!"
:):):):):)
uh,and Mia,don't worry okay,i wont do anything ;)

Meanwhile, i just want to write something about Dad.
I was kindda sad,knowing that he couldnt be back for my birthday.
BUT ,its okayyyy,i understand
as long as he get me the Lappy that he promised me!! :D
Honestly,i didn't know that life would be kindda difficult not having my Dad around.
Life is like shit uh!,cause with Mum i cant really get whatever i want.
Pffttttt., i hope my Dad come home as soon as he's done with stuff at Jakarta!
Please uhhhh.wahhhhhliannehhh
I just miss someone screaming "ANIS!!!!!" at home.
I'm sick!,i know!

"Love. This is getting harder,
And I can't seem to pick you out of the crowd.
But you, my dear, have been discovered a liar.
And I'm afraid that this is building up for far too long.

And this is not the time and place for us to speak like this.
If I had the thought, I'd never dream of it.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water.

In a different time and place the words could make more sense.
In a perfect world, the future wouldn't make a dent.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water,
Even though it's the last time.

Love. This is getting the best of me.
And truth be told, you were the start of it all.
Now you, my dear, might end up lonely.
Before you go, there's something you should know.

And this is not the time and place for us to speak like this.
If I had the thought, I'd never dream of it.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water.

In a different time and place the words could make more sense.
In a perfect world, the future wouldn't make a dent.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water,
Even though it's the last time.

And this is not the time and place for us to speak like this.
If I had the thought, I'd never dream of it.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water.

In a different time and place the words could make more sense.
In a perfect world, the future wouldn't make a dent.
So dry your hollow eyes, and let's go down to the water,
Even though it's the last time.

Please let's not speak.
Don't breathe a word,
Even though it's the last time."
Plus 44-155

Im addicted to this song now!!!!
Like the lyrics so suit my situation now,its all so hard to explain,
anyway its called 155 because it has 155 beat in a minute,so yeah thats why.
Plus Travis,their ang-kong-siao drummer is so freaking cute!
But i still think Paolo Nutini is way-way HOTTER!,sorry.

ciao~ :)

boring maybe?

2008-12-10T20:31:00.000-08:00

Finally Im employeddddd! YEY!! :):):)
SO, AFTER SO LOOOONNNGGGG of rotting at home,
with nothing to do except baking brownies and cookies and watching CSI, The Nanny and Miami Ink every night without fail for almost 2months!, finally by next week, i have something to do to keep myself busy.

So yesterday after jogging, i met an old-old-old frend:)
I dont know why im writing about him on my blog but i think i should.
Just so u know "LONGBEAN!!", i miss u :)
BLURGHHHHH

Okay-okay,so my Hari Raya Haji was okayyyy la.
Went to my aunt house and do nothing much , after that went to town with Hafiz and just
walk-walk and chit-chat,and off to home.
Told-ya,life is boringggggg..
Pfftttttt.

So yeah.
BTW HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZAH and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILMI BARI!!!!!
hahaha..love u guys!!!!
see-ya soon!:)

Friends For Benefit

2008-11-29T20:38:00.000-08:00

This is what Ive been up to lately.
Friends are all i need right now.
Thanks to Hafiz!!, Zatie, Mia, Shida,Fizah,Yan,Harry,Din,bab & Zul
and all of you,you know who.
:)

29.11.2008,The Saturday

Outings with Yan,Harry,Din,Bab and Mia
(True or Dare at Singapore Flyer)
mind all the drinks,as they are not mine:)

20.11.2008,Shee Sha Nights

NO IT ISN'T

2008-11-26T01:28:00.000-08:00

Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ignore

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

I listen to you cry
A cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Please understand

Lay rotting where I fall
I'm dead from bad intentions
Suffocated and embalmed
And now all our dreams are cashed in
You swore you wouldn't lose then lost your brain
You make a sound that feels like pain

So please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you

Plus44-No it isn't

This is the best way for me to describe my feelings.
I'm sorry for every SHIT that u have to go through when you're with me.

Andddd sorry coz i haven't been updating my blog frequently,
cause I'm in no serious mood to do so.
whatever it is...
i promise to update all the pictures next time aite
:)/:(??

Taking a short break from reality.

2008-11-21T04:21:00.000-08:00

MORE PICTURES COMING UP!!
Despite how excited i may look,i am not,pfft!

P/S: The end has no end.
And I'm sure that you'll find someone better.
Thanks for everything<3

Shadowplay

2008-11-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

"To the centre of the city where all roads meet, waiting for you,

To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you,
I was moving through the silence without motion, waiting for you,
In a room with a window in the corner I found truth.

In the shadowplay, acting out your own death, knowing no more,
As the assassins all grouped in four lines, dancing on the floor,
And with cold streel, odour on their bodies mad a move to connect,
But I could only stare in disbelief as the crowds all left.

I did everything, everything I wanted to,
I let them use you for their own ends,
To the centre of the city in the night, waiting for you.
To the centre of the city in the night, waiting for you."

Shadowplay-Joy Division

Have been listening to Joy Division songs lately.
Been so much influenced by their movie,Control.
The guy,the girl,the band,And the everything="COOL sia".

So, Saturdays was awesome, Far east to Cathay to LPS(Lau Pa Sat).
"lau pa sat kat maner?"
"kat pusat mak kauuuuuu"
"pusatt makk kauu baaalikkkk"
ok-ok its rude and LAME i know,but anyway we all had fun didnt we?
"ehhh. aku da fanatic niiii!*matrep sleng*"
Haris....Haris..HAHA:D

Lately Ive been so sick and tired of the same old problems that i've been facing.
I wish i could talk to you about how i feel,but i don't know?
Its hard.Its complicated.pfftttt

btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ouh yes its Zatie's birthday-how could i ever forgot-
surprise-surprise,*wink*.

so i think that's that..
and thank you Hafiz for listening to all my stupid problems!!
Thanks!,seriously.

bye-bye :)/:( ???

Lazy to blog

2008-11-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

Finally i got the album,like after so long it was being released.
Yeah i know,like what the f***.

Lazy to blog for now so,yeah.

Seeya soon.Bye:)

-Tittle-

2008-10-31T02:45:00.000-07:00

Ouh hey,its been awhile since i blog,so yea.
I think this is the place where i should let things out..

I have been too busy with my Math lately,this explains clearly why i have no time for friends. So i guess they should be more aware of this rather than be pissed of with it. Yeah, whatever~
Now that im FREE,i feel like i only wanna be with the once that i really wanna be with.Not just waste time with those who are never important. I dont even know since when am i this bad.
Ouh well, dont care~

So...there's alot of why,what,and who's questions that i wanna ask.
I wish i could but, this just dont seemed to be the time for us.

Uh,now back to reality.I wanna apologize to u-you know who-for being such a looser-yes,yes, laugh out loud people,go ahead laugh at me!-.I know I've expected too many things. I dont know what to say now, i just dont have the mood. Like,like everytime i think of u and bla..bla..bla................
Pffttt. Its useless.

PS: This is the truth

:)

2008-10-11T14:45:00.000-07:00

Went for Raya yesterday,with the same old people but only yesterday there was about 26 of us.
It was a blast.He's friends were all so funny,PLUS they hijacked yet another lift.
"Lift hijackers" and i heard they mosh-ed in the lift.HAHAHA
Ouh well it was yet another fun day,and for sure i was as shy as ever.

Dad is going to Vietnam soon*giggles*,ermmm for WORK stuff.
So by next week probably I'll be going to most of my friends house for Raya.
All i know is that i cant wait to go to Yan's house to try out he's mum's cookies, i heard it taste exactly like those Famous Amos cookies. :DEFGH

I think i have said enough.

PS:one more week baby:)

Awesome

2008-10-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome, but i think i shall start this post by showing u pic's that i took with my cousin's during their trip here.

Uh,yes. Yesterday Arif's Friend's came over to my house for Raya.
There were like 28 of them, uh-huh,28! and i was like super shy sia,because some of them i dont really know. So-yah.
Then early today,Arif sms-ed me and ask if i want to tag along with he's friends for Raya.
I tag along just because i miss Arif too much.
After which around 7.15 dad send me over to he's house and after we meet we went to meet his other friends over at R.C. Bla...bla...bla....bla...

We were about to reach our second house,that's when something really funny happened.
All of the peeps that were there -about 18 including me- squeezed their butts into one lift,except me and Arif.
And this is what happened;

HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.
Lifts are suppose to elevate not depress.
Me and Arif was like giggling outside while they all were like cursing and swearing.
I bet it was hot and stuffy and stuff like that.
So after Arif called the people (who repairs the lift) ,they finally came out form the lift all sweaty and stuff. Trust me ALOT of the residence laughed when they saw them trapped.
"wah alot of people uh inside!!wahlauuu wei.HAHAHHAHHA"
It was so funny that im still laughing till now.
I had a great day,and i totally enjoyed myself.Till then i leave u with pictures that i took with my love:)

P/S:10 more days baby!!!!:)

The "so-so" kind of day

2008-10-02T11:08:00.000-07:00

Just put down the phone with an old friend.
It felt like never its been a while since someone really cared so much about me.I don't seemed to understand why i should feel all this feelings coming to me but, Oh I'm thankful to have such a nice,caring,understanding,patient,humble and "rough on the outside yet soft on the inside" kinda friend.Thank-you friend :),R6.
A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED

I just would never understand why i should always be the one waiting for you.
I have been keeping plenty of stuff to myself....,like too much.I kept all my feelings to myself cause.., I'm so afraid that if i were to tell you about how i felt, probably I'll be making things worst.Perhaps if i tell you more,it might just change what we had right now.Plus its not only that,i know if i were to tell you that i feel like shit at times,u would just keep on going with ure games or guitar without genuinely acknowledging me.Gees~ life is hard.I remembered a quotation by this friend that is "losers don't win and winners don't loose,the game remains the same and.. bla... bla... bla..". I don't really know what that quotation has to do with my feelings. Oh,well who the hell cares.

Cuzzies from K.L just came around 9pm just now.
The plan was that i sleep in my room with 2 of them(my cuzzies),which definitely i was fine with it.But look now my mum changed the plan and told me to sleep with Pit.WTH?! Trust me friend,I'm not being all fussy and stuff but he's room is so suffocating that when you stand in between our room,you can actually feel the difference of a super cold breeze coming form my room and the super hot heat rushing out he's room.Yes! it's that bad! Trust me!

Uh yes,Hari Raya was okay.The best part was that i saw Faizal(yet another cousin).The whole day was boring because i didn't get to talk to someone around my age,so like when i saw him like "yessa!! finally at least can talk abit with him". Some of the UNDER-AGED kids were well behaved but some are just plain evil!
"Eh what? Cheeeeeeeeee-byeeeeee! I dont wanna play anymore uh~" *and there goes the ps2 controller*-oh just so you know,we kept our Ps3 save(somewhere) cause we know that stuffs like that would happen :), and the best part was,that particular child's mum was busy GOSSIPING about how bad other children were.

It was a "so-so" kind of day.It wasn't that dead boring la.

so yeah,I'll write soon:)

Rewind,R6.

2008-09-27T21:06:00.000-07:00

Let the lyrics describe to you how i feel about us.

Pickin up the pieces
Of the wreck you went and left
And I'm dealing with dilemmas
In my not-so-stressful life
And I'm drinking stronger spirits
I made my home here on the floor
And I'm losing all ambition and goals

And I'm going all out
And I'm thinking you're just as bad

No sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind

Oh remember at 16
Oh the crazy drunken night we had
When I kissed you in the hallway
Then I took you straight to bed

Well two years on
And I'm still that same boy

And I'm not sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

No sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

You might blame it on me
But you persisted that we fall
Wiped your hands of me
And said you needed more, more, more

And I'm not sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

And I'm not sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh
-Rewind-Paolo Nutini

I'm just never use to changes and stuff like that,that's the reason why I'm acting weird lately.One time I'm happy and the next thing you know I'm feeling lousy or just mad for nothing.Like,i try so hard to refrain myself from acting like that,but it just don't seemed to work."WHY CAN'T WE JUST REWIND".I hate this feeling.Shit.

There's so much more i wish i could write about,but sometimes things are just meant to be left unsaid.But however if YOU-you know who-were to come across this post,i wish i could tell you that,everything happens for a reason and every coincidence are the reason why we are who we are now.

and finally,YES its the big day today.I woke up at 5.30 just to catch the morning breeze while i help mum put in all the cookies,cakes,sweets and tarts in the nice-nice bottles.For sure my house is gonna be FULL!.Just like last year.If they didn't have organised to celebrate Hari raya at my house i bet i still won't have any idea that Faizal is actually my cousin. :)

So i guess i will do some Math before i sleep again.And to u all "Selamat Hari Raya"

PS: Just so u know,i like to be around you;
:) "i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

nothing much to say

2008-09-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

ANNOYED...PANIC..EXCITED all at the same time.

SO SCARRY~

All i know is that i loveeeee being around him most of the times.
And think i should get going now..its almost time for buka.
Life is ouh-so-lucky for me!!!!!!

PS: One more month..One last chance:)

Shitty,Crappy,Friday

2008-09-18T18:49:00.000-07:00

Its Friday and.....i feel like shit!

Don't ask me why,probably I'm just mad at myself for all this.I'm better off being alone. BLURGH. So,yesterday i had a good talk with my cousin.Thanks to him i feel a whole lot better...But I'm a bit draggy now. If i could,i would wanna run away from reality and don't ever wanna come back and face all the stupid people with their stupid behaviour.

I guess I'm going library later.To borrow more of Nicholas Sparks books.Then maybe shop for more stationary(again).That's one fact about me,that is i LOOOVVVEEEEE having plenty of colour pens and unnecessary stuff in my pencil case.And i like to print plenty of pictures and paste then in my "BLACK BOOK".That book somehow reflects my life and it has plenty pictures of me and friends and stuff like that.After all that i think I'll be doing more MATH.

So i guess that it for today...
Bye~

p/s: "Now you find yourself not having that much Friends,well its okay you know.Friends are all easy to find but GOOD FRIENDS are not. So don't worry that much okay"
Thank You! :)

Dear John

2008-09-14T22:01:00.000-07:00

"Dear John,

There's so much i want to say to you,but I'm not sure where i should begin.Should i start by telling you that i love you? Or that the days I've spent with you have been the happiest in my life? Or that in the short time I've known you, I've come to believe that we were meant to be together? I could say all those things and all would be true, but as i reread them, all can think is that i wish i were with you now, holding your hand and watching for your exclusive smile.

In the future, i know I'll relive our time together a thousand times.I'll hear your laughter and see your face and feel your arms around me.I'm going to miss all of that, more than you can imagine.you're a rare gentleman, John , and i treasure that about you. In all the time we were together, you never pressed me to sleep with you, and i can tell you how much that meant to me. It made what we had seemed even more special, and that's how i always want to remember my time with you. Like a pure white light, breathtaking to behold.
I'll think about you every day. Part of me is scared that there will come a time when you don't feel the same way, that you'll somehow forget about what we shared, so this is what i want to do. Wherever you are, and no matter what's going on in your life, when its the first night of the full moon-like it was the first time we met-i want you to find it in the nighttime sky. I want you to think about me and the week we shared, because wherever i am and no matter what's going in my life,that's exactly what I'll be doing. If we can't be together, at least we can share that, and maybe between the two of us, we can make this last forever.
I love you John Tyree,and I'm going to hold you to the promise you once made to me.If you come back, I'll marry you. If you break your promise,you'll break my heart.
Love,
Savannah. "

Finally i finished reading "Dear John".
I know this might sound like more of the "EMO" kind of book but i dont think that its quite like that.Its a book not just based on the common "boy-girl" relationship but it also includes more of the father-son thing and friend-friend stuff too.
So...i dont wanna talk much about this book, or else i will flood my blog writing about it.

Well we have come to the 3rd week of fasting and so far i can tell that im doing good,not great but not bad either.I have fast for almost 8days. :)Ouh ya i can't wait to go bowl again.I guess it should be on the last day of the fasting month?. Well that's what i heard from Yan.Ouh dont talk about the last time we went bowling.It was such a shame! I lost ofcoz. So..so i hope that this time round there would be more people who would be able to join us bowl rather then the same old 3 people.WOOHOOOO i cant wait.

hmmm..nothing much to talk.so i guess i better get going..

p/s: "I'm sorry"

bye~

Paolo Nutini

2008-09-10T23:08:00.000-07:00

Here's something that i wanna share with you guys.

The BEST soul-influenced adult alternative singer and song writer that i have ever came across,Paolo Nutini!. Songs like "Last Request","New Shoes" and "Loving You"are my favorite one's. Well despite his Italian name "Nutini" he's actually born and raised in Paisley,Scotland.He's blessed with a soulful and passionate voice. Wooo-hoooo.For the past few days i have been listening to "Loving You" and i have to admit that he have this funny-yet-unique kinda voice and not forgetting he's charm, it makes alot of girls go crazy over him!!! I know laa...bec im one of them:)
But I'm not as crazy as i am with Mr.Apek(You Know Who!!).

I prefer those kind of-what many people say-"slow" songs like those from Corinne Bailey Rae ermmm Radiohead and some Coldplay songs too..BUT it doesn't mean that i don't like those alternative rock kinda songs.

I sometimes don't understand myself either,unlike Mia-like forever with her SEAN PAUL and BLINK 182-i don't have any "DIE-DIE LIKE" kinda band.The only band/artist that i think i would go for their concert and stuff-if they happen to have it here-would be... hmmmmm... maybe Ashlee Simpson..yeah i know like "WHAT THE HELL SIA FIZAAAAAA??"But i think she's cool..with her NEVER-ENDING-HAIR-COLOUR..her rock-ish kinda voice..her sense of fashion too..and her songs which means so much more then what it meant...
wahh!!!! If Ashley come to Singapore again i would go-uh!!.MAYBE..?I must see how first.
I remembered going to her "so called" small gig at the old Youth Park/Skate Park in 4 years back.It was awesome! But what the hell like "ASHLEY??..kau tak cool sia fiza"
well whatever that floats on my boat lorrr.....

Soo..sooo... enough writing about Music and stuff.
Today and yesterday was good.I enjoyed myself alot yesterday,but today was tiring and summore
Arif came here to just play with my PS3...-________-'
hahahahahahhahaha..well it was all fun though.
Thanks to all friends and to u too Arif:)

p/s:I wish i could play guitar and have a voice like Paolo Nutini:(
bye2

More of Tennis

2008-09-07T21:23:00.000-07:00

Its been a week since i go out and hang out with FRIENDS.
This means more time for Math and plenty time for me to read "Dear John"!
That book just had me going on and on~

Oh well,i don't wanna talk about exam..DESPITE that its in 7 weeks time!

I've been fasting for only 3 days.
And I found a way to kill time before breaking fast,which is that i play alot of tennis game on my PS3.
I don't know what is up with me and games..?other then its so much fun to just watch my brother play that "METAL GEAR SOLID" game rather then to play it myself.
Trust me it is so-so fun playing that tennis game,especially when your opponent is someone that u barely even know.
I always lost to this Nigerian guy,well i..never thought they have PS3 there.....?
He's super fast siaaaa~
GOD DAMN*50cents voice*

Ouh yea i didn't know that a PS3 are able do things a computer could.
so yeah we tried msn-ing yesterday.Everything seemed funny.The whole TV acts like your computer screen,and everything seemed BIG,and funny.
The TV screen was rather clear then what i thought it would be..like pixelated.
but i still think i would be more fun if it is able to have a web cam attached to the thing itself.
But other then that its so cool.!

so i guess its time for me to go clean my house now~

bye~
:)

Changes..

2008-09-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

Ive been thinking about this lately.....
Why do people change???????
I've been noticing that lately many people around me change. Most of them are becoming more responsible, some plain irritating while others tend to be more MATURED.
Many change but i don't..

Well exam's in 7 weeks time.Am i prepared??
don't think so...Ive been reading more rather then practicing more math.

Thank god Arif have always been there for me.I like our late night talks where we talk about almost nothing ans joke almost about everything.Thanks for making everything possible for me ARIF!!uh yes we should definitely meet up sometime soon hor!!! maybe break fast together?

well i should be going..
sorry for the boring post
see-ya

???

2008-09-01T20:23:00.000-07:00

fasting....fasting...fasting...

O level's in one month's time!!!
Stressed Up!!
Fucked Up!!
no time to talk....
gotta go...

Horoscopes??

2008-08-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

"Your analytical side and your intuitive side are in conflict right now you feel like you know the right way to proceed with someone, but there's something deep inside of you telling you to wait, that you need more information. So which side should prevail? Neither. Right now you have to balance the two and acknowledge that while you really do feel like this person is on the up and up, you should probably wait a little while longer before getting in any deeper with them."

-MAYBE,SOMETIMES...horoscopes could be true-

Yet another sad day...

p/s:It hurts so much more then i taught it would be..Bye~